On September 19, 2009, we hosted a dinner party at our home. The friends we invited had either taken us out for lovely meals or hosted gourmet dinner parties at their homes, so we really wanted to make it extra special.
One of the couples who came were our neighbors down the street, Heido and Joe. Heido arrived alone, making a light excuse for Joe, who got here relatively late... at some point Heido pulled me aside and whispered that he'd been having some problems that... kept him on the toilet... and we sort of chuckled and left it at that. Joe didn't get here until maybe an hour after the party began- late enough that I do remember wondering about it.
The dinner party went great, all laughs and smiles, delicious food and good wine and I forgot all about Joe's lateness. Then a couple weeks later, Joe landed in the E.R. with gastro-intestinal problems.
Then came weeks of waiting and inconclusive tests, meanwhile he could only eat bland soup (at the most).
And now, per the most recent CAT scan- cancer. Cancer with tumors in more than one place, but that's pretty much all we know right now, except that it's serious and fast-growing.
I keep wanting to rewind the clock to the days right after the dinner party... in this reverie I imagine myself somehow able to make it better if I could just insist that he go to the doctor right away- like September 21st. I know all this what-iffing is senseless and pointless and that I should focus on the future rather than attempting to second guess the past.
So that's what I'll try to do- just pray for Joe and his family. He has a 1 year old boy who really needs to have him healthy and present while he's growing up. If you're reading this, please say a quick prayer for Joe.